Friday, April 22, 2011

Just sit back and listen

You want to know the truth?

The truth is that I really really REALLY want to wear short shorts with sky high heels and a cropped top and just go outside and hang out with my friends like it's nobody's business.

The truth is that I really really REALLY want to hold a guy's hand and look him in the eyes and smile and perhaps give him a peck at the cheek. Married or not married.

The truth is that I really really REALLY wanna go to a concert and scream my lungs out singing along to my favorite song that's being sung by my favorite band on the stage.

The truth is that I really really REALLY want to.. well, do a lot of things that I know I can't and I'm not supposed to do.

I'm just me after all.

But don't worry. I'm still sane. I know my limits. I know my stand and I am well aware of my principles. But then again, I'm just me.


Kartika Azmi said...

Me here adding,

And the truth is I really really want to go to beach,wearing bikini as I get tanned. Where no boy would give a shit.No boy would check out on my boobs and ass


Aika said...

Dear kartika, you read me like a book ;)

RS said...

I understand all of what you said in this blog post. Siiigh the things people like us go through!!

RS said...

perhaps its worth it in the end?

mira amran said...

thank you for showing that it's not horrible to want these, even though God willing, i won't succumb to peer pressure and sacrifice my beliefs in Islam. even if it gets harder every day.

i strive in knowing that i can survive without these in my life, and if i'm good enough now and accepted into Heaven later, i can get not only all these i want but can never do on earth, but i can get them a million times better than i'll ever get now.

but I'm only human, so yeah. thank you for reminding me that it's okay to want to do things that i can't, as long as i don't.