Random emotional update that doesn't make sense number 2

That awful moment when you realize that the old feelings are paying a visit and you don't know how long they intend on staying.

That awful moment when you realize that you still have your insecurities with you. They never left despite not having to deal with those issues anymore.

That awful moment when you realize that you can't control what you want to feel. Your feelings have to aptitude to come and go as they please and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.

That awful moment when you realize that you still care and you were wrong if you thought that for even one second, you've successfully gotten over the hedge.

But you're not. And you're still stuck here until your feelings decide to let you out once more.

Your brain likes playing tricks on you. And oddly enough, there are times when even your heart complies to it. And together they work towards swerving your emotions. Making you feel miserable, incompetent, useless. And then comes the day when you finally break down. And when you finally do, they become enemies once more.

It's sick when you can't feel anything. But it's sicker when you start to feel everything at once.