This is a serious and boring update

I really don't like waking up really late in the afternoon. Mainly because the moment I wake up I'll feel like pissed with everybody for no goddamn reason and the thought of punching people excites me. I'm the kind of person who wakes up grumpy. Heck I think everybody in my family wakes up grumpy. It's in our genes. Definitely. When I and Tyah were in school, we used to give each other the silent treatment until we reached school. We would put on our uniforms in silence, have breakfast in silence and wait for the van in silence.

There was one time when Tyah asked me something like, "Why do we never talk to each other in the morning?" and I truthfully answered, "Prolly because you look really annoying in the morning." Hahahahahahhaha. Really, it's just like that. I don't know what's up with me hating everybody when I just woke up (or when my sleep is disturbed. Most of the time by Naqib. Boy, he sure did get what he deserved. *evil smirk*). It's like PMS all over again. And sometimes it lasts for one whole day. I won't talk much. My mood will be miserable to the power of infinity and I'll give people sarcastic remarks when they say something. It's like whenever I wake up late, I'll be turned into a hard emotionless bitch.

But that depends on the surrounding factor too(?) Say, if my mum was the one who unceremoniously disturbed my sleep, hell yes I'll be pissed but duh she's my mom I can't just release all my inner rage at her right. So it depends on people too lah.

So yesterday I went to bukak puasa at Pizzahut with Yunie, Kartika, Nulul and Naz. Tasha was supposed to join us but then she went out with her boyfriend instead. Tasha -.- I ordered Meal 1 which consists of that small personal pizza (super supreme), soup of the day (mushroom soup) and a glass of carbonated drink. After that we went to Giant because Yunie wanted to buy the stuffs for the props for our drama performance this saturday. Gulp. I won't be acting in it, in case you're wondering. There was a part for me initially but I switched with Ezman because I just don't feel like being a bread seller who yells "KHUBZ! KHUBZ!" in front of a large audience. Plus, I did write the script after all so I think it's okay if I excused myself from being directly involved with the play. But I am still involved with the play lah. I am now a, uh, stage director? I forgot what it's called. But what I have to do is like direct the changing of scenes and when actors have to go in and out of the scenes or whatever.

I pulled an all nighter last night because I wanted to have my sahur dekat kedai pakcik since Ayunie had been promoting the Nasi Goreng Seafood all night long. It did taste good, that I had to admit. But because Yunie cakap kat Pakcik suruh buat extra pedas the old man took it a bit too far and we ended up with a bloody spicy Nasi Goreng. It was so hot and spicy I can almost feel the ignition of fire on my tongue I swear. I think it would've tasted a whole lot nicer if it wasn't that spicy. I also had two french toasts and sekotak air laici. You can guess how bloated I was by Subuh lol.

So today I woke up at 3pm yes, three in the afternoon because I wanted to get enough sleep hahaha. It's not like I can do that at home anyways hence the reason why I am doing it here lol.

Oh and I bought Happy Family, Snap and Old Maid at Giant yesterday! I remembered my conversation with Tra on how much we missed playing the old card games we used to play when we were little. And each of them was only RM1 like wtf so cheap right.

AND I BOUGHT A FRICKIN VUVUZELA HELL YEAH. I mean, cmoonnn. You gotta admit that it's really cool to have your own vuvuzela rightt.

God I love my Vuvuzela.

Tak rugi kalau tak baca

I can't wait to go back home for raya. Dah menyampah nak muntah dah dudok nilai ni -.- Nanti lepas raya I'll only be staying here for a week for the finals and then cuti dua bulan and off to Gombak woots! Duduk Gombak oke sikit kot sebab ada bus direct pergi KL so senang nak shopping(?)

But I know I'll miss a lot of things here. Kelas dekat gile dekat Nilai ni. Aku blok D, kelas kat block C. Memang dekat gile belakang-belakang je hahahagahga. Kalau bangun lagi 15 minit nak start kelas pun boleh rilek lagi. Tapi tak sempat mandi la hahahagaGAHGhGHHHAGhgahGAHGAHg. Tapi kat main campus nanti kene amek bus ._. MACAMANA KALAU AKU BANGUN  LAGI 5 MINIT START KELAS?! jgefjfgkerfgeuguerkfgefgjrhf. Adakah kena amek Rapid KL untuk ke kelas gi kelas kene bayar wtf.  Harap-haraaap la sangat dapat Mahallah yang dekat dengan Kuliyyah aku. Tolongla tolongla tolong supaye boleh berjalan ke kelas. Oh and classmates aku pun harap-harap la ade Mee, Yunie, Siti dengan Una lagi. Kalau boleh sampai grad aku nak satu kelas dengan diorang. Sangat best okay :)

Aku adalah sangat boring sekarang ini. Mee balik rumah petang tadi meninggalkan aku keseorang di Nilai isk isk. Haha ok bunyi sangat sedih. Tapi takdela sedih mane pun kan. Berbuka tadi aku beli sangat banyak dari kebiasaan. Aku beli nasik dengan sambal udang and sambal ubi dan tempe(?) lepastu beli popiah goreng singgit (SEDAP SAITON POPIAH NEEEEEEYYYYYYYY LIN SILE MAI KE NILAI KALAU HANG NAK RASE POPIAH GORENG YANG SANGAT SEDAP) dengan tauhu bakar dengan air nenas. Selalunye aku beli satu main course je. Harini rase lapas lain macam isk. Ni tauhu bakar ni aku tak makan lagi. Harap-harap kat membazir :|

Senanye aku tengah buat outline untuk final speech untuk subject Oral Communikesyen. Special Ocassion punye speech. Madam kasi 4 tasks boleh pilih satu. I chose the first one which is bagi tazkirah HAHA tu yang paling simple laa malas dah otak aku nak fike banyak-banyak ney. Yang tu first. Pastu ade book review, award acceptance speech (Emmy's wtf) and the last is jadi emcee. Memanglah rajin pulak haku nak jadi mc ni macam kelakar je hahahagahgahagahga. So aku pilihlah kasi tazkirah.

Tajuk aku Love in Islam comel kan kan kan kaaaaaaaaaaaan. HAH SAPA TIRU TAJUK NI AKU CILI MUKA! Aku memang dah habis idea taktau nak buat tajuk apa so aku msg lah Mak untuk meminta pendapat lalu Mak mereply dengan topik-topik yang lebih sesuai untuk Informative speech seperti baby dumping, social problems etc etc. Lepastu aku tanyalah Meme pulak sebab Meme adalah kakak yang sesuai ditanyakan perkara-perkara seperti ini kalau tanye Tyah dengan Lin mesti dapat jawapan hampeh hahahagahgahgahga pastu Meme suruh aku bukak Iluvislam.com and cari tajuk kat situ ceh pemaleh punye Meme nak tolong pike tajok. Hhagahgahagahgahga.

So aku pun bukak la and dapat ilham kat situ! So sekarang outline aku tinggal nak buat conclusion je Alhamdulillah :) Harap-harap la time bagi speech nanti tak seharom time bagi Informative speech. Aku kureng sikit la kasi speech sorang-sorang ni. Nebes die melebeh lebeyyhhh -.-

Oke lah aku tulis kat sini sebab sangat boring hahagahgaa. Nak pergi type outline! Bye ya'll!

No wonder

So apparently the pain I've been experiencing due to the stupid crunches I did wasn't because of developing muscles. I'M IN PAIN BECAUSE MY MUSCLES ARE FREAKING INJURED. Or whatever. Ok injured sounds too serious let change it to, umm, hurt. Meme posted a comment on my previous post saying that crunches should be done little by little lah not 300 reps at one go LIKE WHAT NULUL HAD ME DO JHDFGJHAEFGAKERGFKEGRFJHERGFJHEFR NULUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND SHE HAD THE GUTS TO SAY THAT MY MUSCLES WERE DEVELOPING WHEN I COMPLAINED ABOUT MY ABDOMINAL PAIN TO HEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Jaga kau Nulul. Jaga kau.

That's why it's nice having a half pharmacist half doctor sister who reads your blog because she'll know all the stupid shits that you've been doing and she'll offer you health related advices! Which can be really useful thanks Me T_T Or else I would've died from abdominal rupture or something more serious if I went on doing 100 crunches every night srhjfgjergferkfr. I think I'll take a rest from crunches until my abdominal pain recedes and then I'll start again. ONLY THIS TIME I'LL START WITH 10 INSTEAD OF 100 HDJFVJKSHERGFJKHERGFJKEGRFJKEWGTRTGRTG. Yesterday I only managed to do about 50 crunches because the pain was unbearable. But then Tasha was all like, "Eh aku tak rase saket pon apehal kau rase sakit aku buat sampai sepuluh takde rase lenguh pun" MEMANGLAH TASHA KAU DAH SELALU BUAT AKU NI BARU TIGA HARI BUAT JFGJKERGFKEJRGFKE.

Ok kena berhenti rasa geram kat Tasha dengan Nulul tak elok untuk abdomen yang tercedera hagahgahagahgahgahaghag.

Aku baru submit term paper tadi. Takut gila nak submit takut ada salah aku tak perasan lalu kena cek 634282 kali sebelum tekan butang submit haha. Aku benci citing sources. Kalau in-text citation tahan lagi. Ni kalau kene cite yang nak taruk dalam bibliography tu. SUSAH KOMPLIKETET HAROM AKU DENGAN MEE TERCEGAT DEPAN LAPTOP NI GOOGLE CARA NAK CITE APA STYLE TAK JUMPA-JUMPA JRGFJWEKFGWEJ3FGERJGUF,ERG. Last-last kitorang ikut je cara satu website ni yang gaya macam boleh dipercayai. Leceh tau cite ni. Kalau lupa letak satu titik pun kira salah hdegfujergfjefgke3ryfyfeu. Aku tak berkenan betul kat benda-benda detail macamni -_-

Ok nak dekat 3 pagi dah ni mengantuk gila aku dahlah semalam satu malam tak tidur harini aku baru tidur 3 jam I NEED 10 MORE HOURS BARU BERTENAGA HAHAGAHGAHGAHAGAGHAGAH NAGA GEDDIT GEDDIT kbye.

Hey Y'all!

My stomach hurts like hell. Err, my abdomen in particular. Anyways, did you know that the correct spelling for abs is actually abds? Because it comes from the word abdomen right so, yeah. I found out about this while googling on the correct way to do sit-ups. eheheheheheheheehhehe. Seriously laaa I hate looking at my flabs after bukak puasa. They look so monstrous T_T Even Mee said the sight of my stomach freaks her out. Which isn't very flattering -.-

So I've been doing sit-ups two nights in a row yay me! The first night was with Ayunie sebab saje gatal nak cube haahhahgahaga. The sit-ups that we did were..umm well, you could say it was the full sit-up? I don't know the exact word for it but it's the kind of sit-up when you baring and then bangun and then fully baring and then fully bangun. Which can be very very very VERRRYYYYYY VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY tiring. Baru sampai 4 dah mengah ape cer? Hahahahahahgahgahag.

So then last night Nulul thought me to do crunches. Which is macam sit up but you only go half-way down and then back up again. This one I can do until one hundred :DD

But when I woke up for sahur this morning HAHA ok tipu terlepas sahur. When I woke up for subuh (jangan tanya pukul brapa JANGAN TANYA PUKUL BRAPA) my abdomen huuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrttttttttsssssssssssss so baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddddddddddddd T_______________T I felt like there was some creature trying to dig it's way out from my stomach YES IT REALLY FELT THAT WAY. And it still does HU.

Nak bangun dari pembaringan(?) sakit nak baring sakit nak tunduk sakit nak terima tumbukan orang sakit(?) memang sakitlaaahh the conclusion!

Malam ni aku taktau nak buat lagi ke tak. Nurul cakap kena buat 300 times per day for a month baru boleh dapat washboard abs WTF 300 TIMES WTF WTF WTF. Aku taktaula sakit ni sebab muscle tengah nak membentuk ke ape kan tapi macam serious rase taknak buat dah malam nnnnniiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Tapi kalau sakit-sakit badan lepas vigorous exercise tu tandenye nak jadi tough kaaan HAHAHAHHA. Masa PLKN dulu hari-hari buat starjump 756382764 kali sebab asyik kena denda dorm kotor ada muscle siot kaki aku ADA MUSCLE KERAS TAKDE JELI-JELI DAH OKAYY. Tangan pun ade muscle (betul ke term ade muscle ni. Ke orang panggil tough? ._.) sebab hari-hari berus baju dengan penuh semangat. Tapi tangan kanan jela ade muscle sebab takleh nak berus baju pakai tangan kiri tak biase hgehgehegehgehgehgeehgege.

Harap-harap jela sakit perut ni sebab nak tumbuh(?) muscle kat perut. SEMARRRTT GILA PERUT AKU NANTI WOOTS!

Ok wadehel cakap pasal perot kat sini end of story byebye.


On a much HAPPIER note, I'm staying in Nilai, AGAIN for the weekend because my CCT lecturer SUDDENLY had the genius of all geniuses punye idea untuk buat kuiz hari sabtu WTH?! WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH. I was sooooooooo looking forward to going back home this weekend because all my assignments are done :( But now kenot la have to stay at Nilai bikos sadenly got dis dem kuiz wan. Cheeeeeeeeeeeza totelli cheeesee.

Anyways harini dapat markah midterm kempete and I FRIGGIN PASSED WOOTS! Serious aku ingat dapat 20 je ke ape ok dah sangat cuak sebab haritu kuiz kempete aku tak blaja dapat 2/20 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Serious aku gelak tengok markah aku like how is it humanly possible to get such low marks? Like my 0.7 pointer during my first sem HAHAHAHAHAAHHA. But that's a whole different story because bioscience sucked balls and I hate that damned course to bits and bits and piecesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. *pokes bioscience with a sharp stick*

Setakat ni yang tak dapat markah CCT je -.- entah dah habis tanda belum Tok Bah tu hahahagahgahag. But it's okay lah. I understand the guy he's like 63 kot tadi pun he came into the class like 20 minutes late and asked us, "Why aren't you in class number 8?" walaupun memang hari selasa class kat C-1-23 kesian Tok Bah dah lupa T_T

And haritu Nulul cerita Tok Bah cakap dalam her kelas,  "Saye akan berhenti mengajar bile satu pagi saye bangun and I've forgotten everything." LIKE SUMPAH LAH SEDIH GILA HAKU DENGAR KAAAAANNN :rasa nak nangis pun ada isk. Takpalah Tok Bah. Sebab you sangat comel macam atuk and sebab you're a really nice lecturer redha jelah stay Nilai this week. Hehe.

And next week is like the last week of the semester like WHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAATT? Honestly aku rasa semester ni macam laju gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dooooooohh. This week that week this week that week tetiba TARA! FINAL! Ok scary sikit part final tu tapi serious macam cepat gile sem ni macam short sem le pulok. Hahaha.

Eniwes 2x nah tengok markah mid sem aku kecuali CCT sebab tak dapat lagi.

Grammar : 16.77/20
Drama : 13/20
Oral Com : 16.5/20
Intro to HS : 18.5/20
Computer : 34.5/55
BTQ : HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAKU SEGAN BETUL NAK BAGITAU YANG NI TAKYAH TAULAH HAHAHAHAHAAGAHGAHGAHGA. Ok fine aku bagitau 8/20 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA HUDUH KAANNN.

Ok takdelah cantik mane pon markah aku yang nak tayang tu tapi oke lah jugak HAGHAGAHAGAG. BTQ TU MEMANG AKU TAK BLAJA SEBAB TU MARKAH HUDUH HEGEHGEHEGEGEHGEEGEHG. Ceh kau markah elok nak tayang markah buruk segan pulak tau pon lenkali blaja senonoh sket huh.

Panjang betul yaw post kali ni. Okelah dah pukul sepuluh malam nak pergi mandi BYE YALL!

Arrghhhhh

Sometimes I really really wish that I was 25 years old so that I can get married and get the whole damn thing over with. Peer pressure is really getting the best of me. Everyday I'm faced with stories by my friends telling me how sweet their boyfriends were to them or what their boyfriends gave them or how joyful it was to spend their weekend with their boyfriend or whatever. I am honestly sick of all those shits circulating in my brain for godknows how many days making me feel more and more miserable by the minute.

SO WHAT IF I DON'T HAVE A FRIGGIN BOYFRIEND?

Ok I know that as a friend I must be a good listener and listen to everything that my friends tell me. But c'mooonn. It's not like I'm a robot ok. I have feelings too. And don't you think by telling me all those sugar coated stories I wouldn't be influenced to want to have a boyfriend too? (Not that anybody would want to be my boyfriend but, you know) I'm trying as as best as I can right now to save up myself for my husband. I don't want to be intimate with any guys even as friends because I know I might end up being a lot more than friends. I want my husband to be the first lelaki ajnabi to hold my hand, to share a kiss with me. I want my husband to have the first everything.

I'm very much aware of the fact that my Iman isn't that strong and I'm not such a religious person myself. And I'm not saying this is a I'm-proud-that-I'm-not-religious tone but rather in a I-hope-I'll-be-a-lot-more-religious-in-the-fture tone. I don't know it's just that sometimes I feel that it's so hard being me. Being in my shoes. Feeling what I'm feeling. I know that there are a lot of people out there who are doing a lot more worse that I am but still, I'm getting really sick of all this.

I'm sick of not having a boyfriend like everyone else, I'm sick of not being attached to my phone like everyone else does, I'm sick of not having anyone to talk to when I feel like talking to someone who doesn't consider me as only a friend. Yes, I'll say it here out loud. There have been a lot of times in which I wish that I have a boyfriend too, just like everybody else. I know this may sound really stupid and insignificant to some people because there are other far more important issues to deal with out there but that's just how I really feel right now. It's so hard being me. I honestly think that I repel men. Nobody is attracted to me. You may say that I'm still young and it doesn't really matter if nobody is attracted to me but TO ME IT DOES OK. IT FRICKING DOES. It gives a boost to my self confidence in a sense that I know that I'm nice enough to have a guy like me. But nooooooooooooooooo, here I am in Loser Ville with nobody but myself. Alone. Without anybody in the same boat.

Sometimes I really wish that all my friends are single. That everyone is like me. Single and men-repelling. That's quite a nice thought. But of course that would be possible because most of my friends aren't single. And even if they are, they have scandals or whatever you call them. BUT ME? I DONT EVEN HAVE ONE FRICKIN SCANDAL!!

Not that I want to have a scandal but it would be nice lah to know that at least one human being is into you. Somehow.

And the fact that the people I like never like me back is really bugging me. I mean, I know I'm not the hotshit kind of attractive but like WTH NOT EVEN ONE GUY? Am I really that ugly?  T_T

Sigh. You should know though that I'm not promoting myself or looking for a boyfriend here or writing this hoping that my crush will suddenly reciprocate my feelings or something. It's just that I feel that it's so hard to deal with on a frickin daily basis. You hear the same shit all day long and you just kind of think ,"Awwww I wish somebody would do that to meeee." or "How come nobody says that to mee" or whatever. I don't want a boyfriend right now. Really, I don't. The next guy I'm getting serious with will be the one I'm marrying. So I'll prolly have to keep my sanity until my fourth year in university before I can find a husband for myself. So that means that I'll have to keep up with this shit for another FOUR YEARS WTF SO LONG LAH I'LL DIE A VIRGIN THENN.

 Okay 4 years isn't THAT long right? I mean, it'll just be like umm, 48 months. And 192 weeks. Which is also equal to 70080 DAYS WTTTTFFFFFFFFF SO FRIGGIN LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG.

Dear God please help me get through all this all right. I want my husband to be my first everything please please pleaasssseeeeeeeeeee!

PEYIDEM

It's 0509am and I'm still awake. Well, it's obvious that I should be awake because of sahur. But this is the I-haven't-slept-all-friggin-night kind of awake. So I was up all night trying to finish up my critical thinking assigment which was comparing the barriers from the western and islamic perspective. We had to compare five barriers from each and we also had to write up until 10 pages. wtf rightttt. But then our lecturer said that the font was to be Times New Roman, 14 (YES, FOURTEEN) and DOUBLE SPACING LIKE WTFF THAT WAS LIKE TELLING US TO WRITE A FRIGGIN FIVE PAGE TERM PAPER YEAAAAAAAHH. Seriously, double spacing kot. 1.5 pon macam dah perghh perghhh bersyukur gila nihhh apetah lagi double spacing HOHOHOHOHOHO!

Eniwes, harini dah 12 Ramadhan dah. CEPAT GILA KE HAPA? LAGI 18 HARI RAYA YEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYYEYEYEYE sekejap je lagi nak Syawal isk isk. Btw sekarang ni aku tengah bersahur makan biskut oat krunch yang sangat sodap tadi dah makan megi HAHAHA sangat mewah sahur harini sebab gua bangun awal aka tak tidur langsung tu yang banyak masa boleh rajen gi buat megi tu hagahgahga. Kalau tak memang aku bangun, kunyah dua keping biskut, minum air mineral sikit pastu sambung tidur memang tak kuasalah nak gi masak megi pulak kaaann.

Makan megi tadi pulak berpiuh-piuh haku cari sudu besar tak jumpa pulaaaaak. Aku tak suka makan megi pakai sudu kecikk. Tak dapat nak sauk kuah berajinomoto die tu banyak-banyak hegehgeheghegehgeheghehheg.

Lega gila la dah siap semua assignment. Calc dah, CCT dah, Drama punye term papar dah, grammar punye project dah. Memang rasa macam nak menari bogel tengah padang sebab sangat gembira HOHOHOHOHGAHGAHEGEHGAHDJFFFFEGRFKEJRGHEFRRMFG. Ok jakgi masuk subuh dah nak pegi solat di awal waktu boboi.

Lame gila aku ni

Tetiba aku rasa cam aku manusia paling lame dalam dunie sebab barang-barang aku smue lame.

Beg yang aku pakai pegi kelas kelas adalah bag  yang Mak dapat free beli barang-barang mekap. Kan kalau beli set-set adelaa die kasi free gift bag ke pouch ke ape kan? Ha beg macamtulah yang aku pakai gi kelas sekarang. Tak mampula aku nak beli Coach ke, LV ke Elle ke pakai gi kelas. Kapcai gile beg aku. Beg ni pun aku pakai sebab beg kelas aku yang lama dah koyak rabak sana sini. Aku kalau pakai barang memang aku pakai sampai rosak teruk habis buruk. Beg kelas yang tu pun aku beli kat KL Central je. RM35. Yang polkadot tuuu. Sumpah sayang gila ah aku kat beg tu. Tapi dah koyak-koyak. Nampak macam sedih sangat je pakai beg koyak-koyak gi kelas. Hu.

Pencil box aku pun dapat free beli barang-barang mekap jugak. Aku sayang gila pencilbox tu. Warna hotpink yaw. hahahahahahahaha. Tapi peduli la. Pencilbox tu cantik bagi aku. Hahahahah. Purse aku pun macam dah burok gaban gile. Dalamdie dah tekoyak-koyak. Yunie menyampah betul tengok purse tu sampai die cakap "Jangan sampai aku beli purse baru kat kau" HAHAHAHAHAHA. Sungguh menyampah Ayunie dengan purse aku sampai sanggup membelanjakan duitnya sendiri untuk beli purse baru(?)

Selain itu juga, baju aku memang ada dua tiga helai je yang ada brand yang dikenali. Yang lain harom tak pernah dengar hahahaha. Aku suka shopping online ni pun dekat pre-loved punya blogshops. Maksudnya baju-baju 2nd hand. Kalu blogshop yang jual baju-baju baru tak mampulah aku. Harga mahal tak masuk akal. Aku ni pun bukannye kaye sangat boleh beli baju baru hari-hari. Sebab tu aku suka beli pre-loved punya baju. Cantik, murah pulak tu. Bab orang dah pernah pakai tu pedulilah. Kau baru dapat basuh dulu baru pakai. Dah jadi baju kau kan? Hahaha.

Kalau ada barang-barang aku yang agak branded tu pun bukan aku beli sendiri. Mesti parents aku beli. Takpun kakak aku. Kalau aku nak beli sendiri harom la. Lagipun aku bukannye dapat allowance macam orang lain. Sebulan sampai RM500. Aku bila perlu baru aku mintak duit dekat parents aku. Aku tak suka mintak banyak-banyak pun. Rasa bersalah pulak. hohoho. Padahal duit guna nak makan -_-

Most of my friends bila dah dapat scholarship pun parents still bagi duit lagi. Aku ni bila dah dapat memangla tak dapat duit langsung T_T Bila dah habis memangla diorang bagi duit balik tapi tapi tapi mestila macam rasa guilty nak habeskan cepat-cepat sebab nanti kena mintak duit lagi kan. Sigh. Sekarang ni pun scholar aku dah tinggal RM450. Seminggu kurang-kurang  pakai RM50. Nanti cuti kalau kawan ajak keluar takkan nak mintak duit dekat parents kot? Aku nak kerja takboleh, aku nak save duit scholar nanti tak makan pulak. Dilemma gila T_T

Hmm apa lagi nak cerita pasal diri aku yang sangat lame ni. Haa. Masa pergi PLKN dulu kan ade cuti 4 hari tu kan. Aku ikut Tasha balik Lahad Datu and dekat sana hari jumaat ADA BUNDLE HEAVEN! Diorang panggil bundle tu rombengan hoho. Tapi bundle diorang bukan cikai-cikai yaw. Aku tengok label die macam baju mahal-mahal je lepastu Tasha cakap bundle die dari overseas. Entahlah dari mana TAPI SERIOUS MEMANG MURAH GILA cardigan cantik-cantik RM1 WTF??!!?!!! Memangla aku beli banyak gila T-shirt cardigan etc etc tak sampai RM20 pun kot aku spend.

Nampak tak kenapa aku suka beli baju rombengan? :B

Alah lagipun bukan orang tau tu baju baru je baju lame ke. Bila dah beli tu kau basuh cuci-cuci and it's as good as new. Tapi bila orang tanya beli katmana tu nak jawab kena buat muka kambeng sikit ah sebab most people kan selalu pandang slack sikit dengan baju-baju bundle ni. Baju je pun, rilek la -.- Yelah bukan semua orang kaya macam kau every week boleh pergi beli baju kat F21 la, Zara la, Topshop la, MNG la apa la. Kau hidup senang memangla boleh. Cuba consider orang kurang senang macam aku ni? Ceit.

Bukanlah nak cakap aku ni macam cheapskate gile ke ape tapi when I have a cheaper alternative then why nak beli yang mahal dan branded yaw? Ok maybe orang cakap lebih kualiti blablablabla but seriously -_- Aku adalah manusia yang paling tak heran pasal brand. Tapi aku suka masuk kedai-kedai macamtu sebab aku suka try baju yang aku takboleh pakai in real life macam skinnies, PVC leggings, tight skimpy dresses etc etc. It makes me feel that my dream has come true :B Nak beli tu memang harom la kaan dahla mahal cam rehejrgfewfrfhvrjhrkv kalau pakai berdosa pulak tu HahagHAGgahGHAGAHghagHGAH.

Tapi setak beli-tak beli baju branded pun aku rasa sense of fashion aku takdalah lorat sangat. Takpalah tak dapat berfashion hebat-hebat pun asalkan tutup aurat kan :)

This post contains a lot of ugly pictures. Be warned

Ok serious lambat gila post ni baru nak tunjuk gambar. But I did say I'll post the pictures and since I'm really free right now after having completed my outline for persuasive speech and my handout for BTQ and the grammar exercise. I AM SO FREE I'M GONNA DIEEEEEE

Ok so pictures.

Abang bebi yang ketegaq nak mampoih.

The fat birthday boy, sleeping.

Fat birthday boy with Grandpa.

Random picture of ugly brother setting up barbeque table(?)

FFFFFFFFFFOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Plain agar-agar for the cocktail.

Ugly brother acting like he's gonna jam in the nails with his bare hands -.-

Ugly brother resulted to using a hammer instead wtf.

For teh koktel.

18sx. Hahahaha.

Cikinn.

Lopeh!

Prawns!

Obvious captions wtf.

Table with yummy food on it.

Lopeh summore.

Seriousshit malas gila nak tarok caption -_-

I look like an abused person. And my nose looks humongous ._.

Things to barbeque.

Ugly people produce ugly pictures :| Seriously I look like a transvestite here wtf

Semua muka takmandi lagi/

Takboleh loading lagi ._.

Gedebabs.

Cousins. Mugay poyo gila taknak orang amek gamba die malam tu -_-

GOTCHA MUGAY!

adakah tangan aku tengah mengipas barbeku dari jauh ._.

K.fizah's side of the family. Totally random.

BTW TENGOK MUKA AYAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

All these pictures of food are making me hungry :B

Coleslaw! :D

Quarterly(?) eaten cake.

Sworn enemies lol look at Ainaa's expression.

This kid definitely has my genes.

This is so candid.

MUGAY WE CAUGHT YOU ON CAMERA AGAIN!

I am trying to make a strong point I think. Mugay muka mintak kaki hahahahahaha.

Kuzin and ugly sister. I look pretty normal eh :)

K.Fizah looks so fat lolwtf.

MUAZ PALM FACING HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I mean Mugay.

This is a very rare scene, trust me.

The I'll-make-a-good-wife-see-I'm-wiping-the-table-clean look.

TYAH LOOKS SO RETARDED I JUST HAVE TO PUT THIS ONE UP HAHAHAAAGAHGAHGAGAGHA. I look so obedient wtf.

AINAA'S EXPRESSION IS PRICELESS. Lin looks equally retarded ._.

He kept doing that whenever I tried to snap his picture it's so annoying I swear -.-

And that guy beside Muaz is Sakif. He's a family friend. He and his siblings are very nice. Friendly and everything. I don't feel awkward at all around them eventhough most of them are boys. Good company :)

Wtf right -_- GET OVER IT MUGAY YOU'RE NOT A FRICKIN CELEBRITY AND IT'S NOT LIKE I'M GONNA SELL YOUR PICTURE OR WHATEVER.

There's the rest. The girl in purple is Elisya, the one in specs in Nabil and the small one(?) is Qayum. They were obsessing about the lame games on Lin's iPhone -.-

AINAA IS PICKING HER NOSE BTW HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

And here Ainaa, is a close up picture of you because I love you so much HAHAHAHAGAHGAAGHAGAHGAHGAHAGAHG

What..?

Belon face.

Another photo of them ogling at the iPhone.

And I shall end this long pictured post with a picture of the birthday boy.

Happy 1st birthday Nazif! Auntie Kah loves you very much yaw ♥

Pasal budak-budak dan makbapak

Aku rasa jaga sekandang, no make that tiga kandang lembu gila pun lagi senang dari jaga si Naqib ni. ANNOYING GILA TAHAP ANNOYING DIA BOLEH BUAT KAU MAMPUSSSSS. He won't listen to what I say, he won't respond until I've called him like thirty thousand times AND HE KEEPS DOING THINGS THAT YOU FRIGGIN TOLD HIM NOT TO DO!!

Sapa nak kurus meh datang rumah aku jaga Naqib. Konpem seminggu turun berat badan korang. Dengan nak kejar lari sane sininye, dengan liat nak mandinye dengan degilnye YA KARRRIIIIMMMMMMM. Salah satu benda yang konfem die akan buat adalah lari bogel selepas mandi. LEPASTU KAU KENE KEJA PULAK DENGAN TUALA KAT BELAKANG SAMBIL JERIT "HOIII JANGAN LARILAAAHHH LICIN TU JATOH NANTI WOOOOIIIIIIIIIIIIII" and sometimes, when he does fall and cry his heart out kena pujuk pulaaakkk HAKU DAH CAKAP JANGAN LARI KAU DEGIIIIILLLLLLLLLL !$%^&^$#@^&^%$#@#$%^!!!!!!

Serious, stress gila jaga budak-budak ni. Mak aku macam rilek je jaga aku taktaula kenapa. Maybe umur aku ni bukan umur sesuai menjaga budak? Haehgeheghegegegeghegehgehgegeheg. Tapi jaga Nazif macam senang sikit la. Sebab still tak boleh jalan, lari, lompat lagi kan. Tapi merangkaka die tu laju jugak, kene keja jugak -.- Sekarang hobi die merangkak naik tangga. So mak aku taruk bulu ayam kat tangga sebab die geli dengan bulu ayam so die tak naik hegehgehaghagahgehgahgahg. Tapi makin lama macam makin tak geli je ._.

Kalau dah lama tak jumpa budak dua orang ni memang rindu gila sebab tak ada orang annoying dalam rumah. Taaaaappppppppppppppppppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii bila dah jumpa sure rasa nak balik Nilai taknak balik rumah dah. Ni la orang kata jauh bau bunga dekat bau taik. Betul la tu -_-  Ni Naqib tengah atas katil haku chanting "Sulanan sulanan sulanan" tiga ribu kali godknows what that means.

Jaga dua orang ni buat aku terfikir macamana kalau aku dah ada anak nanti. Harap harap sejuta kali harap sangat tak degil macam naqib. KALAU DEGIL MEMANG HAKU BELI SATU STORE PENUH BULU AYAM DENGAN ROTAN HAAHGAHGAHAGHAGAHGAHGAHGA. Aku nak besarkan anak aku macamana mak bapak aku besarkan aku. Nak manja boleh, tapi manja-manja sangat rosakla kau nanti. Dah besar tak hormat makbapak, tengking makbapak, melawan, kurang ajar. Tula jadi kalau manjakan sangat anak. Tapi janganla pulak sampai jadi macam nazi dengan anak kau. Sekali sekala takpala. Do it in moderation bebeh.

Bukanlah nak bangga tapi adik beradik aku serious semua respek habis dekat makbapak kitorang. Kalau aku buat pape mesti aku fikir makbapak aku. Kalau diorang tau ape perasaan diorang. Tu je yang aku fikir. Kalau result aku klua pun. Time aku study pun. Makbapak makbapak makbapak ♥

Sampai satu malam ni, masatu world cup lagi. Lin ajak aku dengan Tyah pegi isi minyak kereta tapi die nak tengok satu match ni dulu. Match tu pulak habis pukul 1130 ke 1230 am tah. Tapi macam lambat laa. Kitorang pulak memang bukan jenis klua malam kalau kat rumah. Lepas match tu habis kitorang pun siap-siap la nak pegi isi minyak. Aku ikut sebab nak slurpee Tyah ikut sebab nak udara malam yang segar wtf aku ingat lagi hahagahaghagahgahgahag. Lepastu dah siap la ni, turun bawah dah amek kunci dah pun tetibe kitorang cam, "Eh betul ke nak pegi ni." "Tapi tak bagitau Ayah." "Ala isi minyak je" "Kalau start kreta nanti Ayah dengaq macamane?" So last-last kitorang tak jadi pergi sebab rasa tak comfortable klua tak bagitahu makbapak hehegeeghegehgehgeheghege.

Aku serious tak paham macamana orang boleh sneak out dari rumah pepagi buta. Kalau makbapak korang tau tak kene belasah ke? Erk. Aku pun pernah je kluar tak bagitahu makbapak. Tapi tu kat Nilai la. Kalau pergi Giant pun pejadah nak bagitau kan -.- Tapi kat rumah tak pernah la. Takut siot. Hehehehe.

Eh tetiba jadi panjang pulak. Dahlah tu aku nak gi sambung buat outline persuasive speech ni. Harom jadah betul. Naqib dah berdengkur atas katil btw. Hahahhahagahga.

I wrote a letter for you! :)

www.letterstocrushes.com

I hope you'll read it and freak out lol

Sup Yaw

Tak nyenyak betol aku tido malam tadi. Dahlah aku tido tengah. Sasa dengan Qlah tido senget pulak APAHAAAAAAAAAAAAALL memang ah aku rase sempit gile setiap 3.635427 saat terjage kan. Lepastu sebab kitorang macam gabong due katil and tido melentang, so katil belah bawah tu macam tend to tetibe londeh(?) so bile tebangon tetengah malam ade jarak aa pulak antare dua katel tu kan. aku gerak nak suruh angkat kaki sebab aku nak tarik balik degil due orang tu. Tido macam ape ke -.-

On a bitter note, aku puasa lagi harini. And kalau aku puase mood aku jadi buruk gile cam harom sebab aku LAPAR DAN PENAT DAN SAKIT KEPALA DAN PERUT RASA CAM TERBAKAR SAMPAI AKU RASA NAK ROBEK-ROBEK DENGAN PISAU PEROT AKU TU KASI MASUK ANGIN SEJUK SKET. Parah gila. Kemuncak mood buruk aku adalah bila lapar, penat dan sakit kepala. Kalau kau cari pasal dengan aku time tu memang aku kasi free kick. Serious, cubela. Tapi kalau bulan Ramadhan aku puase takdela bad mood pon. Maybe sebab orang lain puasa sama? Entahla.

Ahad ni aku pergi Maimunah kawen omg awal gile die kawen harut aku cakap dengan parents aku "Mak, nanti nak pegi kawan Tkah kawen boleh?" And my mum was like "Kawan hang brapa taon?" So I told her "Smilan bleh" PASTU MENGUCAP MAK AKU HAHAHAGAHGAGAHAGHAGAHAHAGHAGAHGA! Lepastu mak aku cakap lagi, "Awat awai sangat die kawen? Masak kemeh rumah semue tau ke tu?" Pastu tetibe Lin menyampuk, "Entah-entah kawan die smue dah reti masak gulai dah pon Ma. Tkah tu je yang tekiai-kiai"

KUAJA BETOL LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Siap korang aku masak kari ikan suatu hari nanti jangan terkejut pulak. HUH!

Oh lupa nak cakap kat bakal suami (tetibe gile wth) awak kena tau makan kari ok. Kalau lagi best, jadikan kari ikan tu fevret awak sebab saya memang takleh hidop tanpa kari ikan ye and kemungkinan besar bende pertame yang akan saye blaja masak adalah kari ikan(??) hikhik hikhik. Oh awak jugak kene suke rasem, dalca, nasi briyani, katrika karwade (iaitu kari ikan masin YANG NI SUMPAH FEVRETTT) dan lain-lain lagi masakan mamak because I can't live without theemmm padahalu asek nak mengharapkan Mak yang masak huh gi lah blaja masak sendiri nate mu.

P/s: awak menghilang ke mana yaw?