I actually HATE speaking in English. Most people might not know this or might not have guessed. But yes. That is the ultimate truth. I HATE HAVING TO SPEAK IN ENGLISH.
Perhaps most people aren't aware of this because I usually blog in English, message in English and chat in English. But that's just about as far as I would go in using the English language as a communication tool. And eventhough I did represent my school in ENGLISH public speaking and ENGLISH debate, I still DO NOT like to speak in English.
Unless I really really have to.
Like during presentations, or asking questions in class (being a BEN student and all. But sometimes I do ask the questions in Malay :|) or in competitions. And also when I'm speaking to my non-Malay friends or my non-Malay classmates who can't really comprehend Malay. I will only and only speak English if I really really really really really have to.
Oh and one more thing.
I HATE HAVING TO SPEAK ENGLISH WITH PEOPLE WHO KNOW MALAY.
I mean, what's the point really? You know how to speak Malay, I know how to speak Malay, so why the heck are we speaking in English to each other? I just feel really..dumb when I speak English to someone who IS A MALAY/KNOWS MALAY.
I know a lot of people do it though. Even in UIA. I'm not really condemning (But I really think I am, in a way) what they're doing but in my point of view it's just blatantly stupid. Like what are you trying to prove by jabbering away in English? That you can speak English fluently so people will be impressed? Hear it from me, nobody really gives a fig on that. Not me, at least. I can speak in English if I want to. I just don't see the point of doing it with fellow Malays.
Because yes, I would much more prefer to converse in Malay a hundred times more than in English. And I have my reasons for that. People who know me like REALLY know me would prolly know why.
So guys, if you're speaking to me as in the eye to eye speaking, PLEASE SPEAK IN BAHASA MELAYU. Or else I'll just look at you blankly like I don't know what the hell you're blabbering about.
I know some people might say that this is very unprofessional of me and by constantly speaking in English you would improve your communication skills for future use but like I said, it's not that I don't speak English AT ALL. I do speak the language. Just when it's necessary.
I just fail to see the use of having daily chats in English. I think that's just plain showing off. Kthxbai.